Lovely Tonight

Does any of us really know where we belong or where we are going? Is everyone just as lost and torn about every choice in life? Life is short, so unbelievably short. Days blurr together and after a while years don't feel like that long anymore. So how do you know if you are on the right path or not? How do you know if you are doing what you are meant to do or if you made the right choice? It feels like you never know until you take the time to look back and break down your life and by that time its too late and the damage has been done. I don't know what I'm doing. I don't know where I belong or where this path in life will bring me. I don't know what I want right now or even what I want tomorrow. I don't know what I will want a year down the road or even the person I will be a year from today. I don't know what life will bring for me or if I will look back on my life and count my regrets. I don't know if the choices I make now are choices that will haunt me forever but at least I know that I am trying. I am doing something. I am taking chances and making choices. I am trying. I can fully admit that. At least I'm trying. And I'm scared. Scared out of my mind. I'm afraid of success. I am afraid of failure. I'm afraid of where this will bring me. I'm afraid what this will cross out. I'm afraid of what I will miss out on. I'm afraid of what it will lay out ahead of me. But isn't that life? And I'm trying and I will keep trying. I'm exhausted. Mentally. Physically. Emotionally. I don't remember a time that I was this emotional but when I go to bed at night I can heartfully say that I'm giving it what I can and I'm working towards something. At least I'm trying. And that's all anyone can ask of me.