The world watching.

Every day I am more amazed how accommodating and caring seemingly unknown strangers can be. It gives me so much hope for human-kind in general. Not everyone is consumed with watching out for number one and number one only. Some people genuinely have enough heart to worry about other people, people they don't know or barely know. I'll be like that, I swear. I want to become more like that. Just giving myself out to people without knowing the consequences and hoping for the best. And if not, that's life. You take the good with the bad, the happy with the sad and make the most out of it. Back to reality. I've been here a week and it feels like an enterinty. Yesterday was an absolutly beautiful day. Woke up and went to Nellie's. Such a good breakfast. I've missed having real food. Just being there and knowing where it is made me feel so connected to the city. I know that sounds lame but I have this burning desire to make something of myself here. To have these connections and to know these spots. Every day is just one more step towards that. Contact juggling blew my mind. It's exactly what I needed. Just to be surrounded by such free flowing creativity and truely happy people. When was the last time I was surrounded by people that were happy for no reason? Or just happy in general? It's an awesome feeling. They are just, well, them. Nobody to prove there actions or anything to anybody else. They do what makes them happy. I think that's why I'm still so hesitant. Red Deer was just so full of people ready to jump on everything out of the norm. Waiting for a misplaced step or anything they could throw down a negative comment. It takes time, I know. It takes time to feel comfortable in my own skin again and to completly let myself go but I can feel myself getting there. I desperatly need to lose this Red Deer attitude on life or I'm gonna go nowhere. I'm so glad to be getting back into the live music scene again. Or really for the first time. The Flemish Eye Ball last night was awesome! It blew my mind. I swear I'm in neverending debt to Chris. He's already opened my eyes to so many things and has done so much for me and I've known him for less then a week. I should get a free bike either today or tommorow from Matt which makes my life. It's just another step, another cross off the list. I am ever so happy right now. When was the last time I was this happy? Let's hope this feeling never leaves.