Now I'm only left to wonder why.

I am so pissed off, like unbelievable pissed off. Do not, I repeat DO NOT tell me that I am basically fat. Are you kidding me? 130 pounds are you kidding me? I mean I know I put on weight but really, I'm not even close. I don't even know why that bothered me so much. I'm trying so hard not be an angry person, or the angry person I was but I was fighting every instinct telling me just to punch him. I don't want to be that person but don't tell me that. And then go ahead and try to question my drinking ability and laugh at me when I say I'm sober. Um hello, I'm pretty sure I would know more then anyone else would. I'm kind of me, 24-7 and you have known me for what? About an hour, um fuck you. How about that? I know it's more then that but that's really what started it all. My phone is cut off so I'm pretty much stuck in Red Deer now. What else do I have to do? I'm screwed and I'm doing my very best to act like I'm not but what more do I have? I can't get a job if I can't be reached. I can't be reached if I don't have a phone. I can't have a phone if I don't have money. Ugh, I knew it would catch up to me in time and it's so frusterating because this is the time I need something to happen so bad. I can't pay for my loan payments, I can't pay for my phone, I can't let people down. I don't even know. I think I'm just going to go cry. My life is just falling apart.