Rentals

Step 1. Figure out what I want.
Step 2. Figure out how to get there.


For now, that's all I got. That's all I'm working on and it takes one step at a time. I think I'm starting to figure out what I want. Slowly I'm realizing the person who I want to be and the risks I have to take in order to better myself in life. It's okay to lean on people and accept assistance from people. It's human nature. I just have to fight my desire to do everything on my own. I'm realizing maybe I do have a ton of hidden insecurities. I'm really uncertain of the future. I have to work on trying to visualize myself in the future and put myself on the line in order to accomplish that. If not, I'll risking the chance of going nowhere. I pour out all this philosophical outlooks and opinions on life yet I do not take them into any consideration in my own life. That's a big thing I need to change. Everything worthwhile takes work and energy. Nothing worthwhile comes easy and for free. So how far am I willing to let go of to get what I want? How much am I willing to risk to get where I need to be? I guess only time will tell.

PS: I can't believe he did that. First ask if I want to have group sex, then proceedes to have a girl spend the night. I do believe his fling with me is over in his mind.