What a difference, she said

I eat like horrible about 90% of the time. I go on binges and will likely pull out something that one may call 'the ultimate fat'. I have an addictive personality to an extent, meaning I can do something repeatedly, such as play a song on repeat for days straight and not get sick of it and then stop and never listen to it again. I talk during movies. I don't have a judge of what is normal conversation and what isn't. The cleanness of my room is a direct factor about how I'm feeling in life. If it's messy then my life is generally a mess. I believe dreams mean something more then just images your mind produces while your asleep. And that everyone you meet is in your life for a reason. I can't stand the thought of doing one single thing for the rest of my life, that's why I find it hard thinking that I'll ever settle down or get married. I have unrealistic goals for myself and my future but it keeps me going and that's more then some people can say. When things get good I have to find something 'wrong' to bring it back down to level. I push people away when I need them the most. I don't talk about feelings or like to admit that I have them. I'm always sick and when that happens I'll likely think I'm dying and act like it. I'm oblivious to flirting or guys coming onto me. Most of the time I'm more seen as one of the guys. I've come to terms with the fact I have a decent amount of baggage. I've been cheated on, had people die and been abandoned, so anyone who doesn't have baggage after that has issues. I'm not easy to forget but easy to walk away from. I'm super stubborn and not easy to convince of things. I have an excuse and reason for everything I do and can't do. I hate sleeping alone but when I sleep with others I sprawl out like a 400 pound tank and take up all the room. I don't like to say no and that gets me in trouble. I don't know limits and when enough is enough. I like to think I can handle more then I can, like alcohol for example. I'm always right. And if I'm not right then it doesn't count. I know when I'm being lied to and I know when people are hiding things. I intentionally do things that are bad for me because of momentary gain or happiness. I relate everything in Grey's Anatomy to my life. It's my addiction, it makes me laugh, it makes me cry and it makes me feel like everything will work out in the end. I will make you laugh even though sometimes you will wonder why. I don't like to think before I talk and assume people want to hear everything I have to say. I let people in over and over and let them hurt me over and over because I'd rather risk the gain then what I will lose. I'm a hopeless romantic at heart without all that cheesy gross romantic things that come along with it. I will give anyone the time of day if they are willing to have a decent conversation. I get super passionate about certain subjects and items in my life. I'm not afraid of a good argument or to say what's on my mind. I will listen to every ones problems and try to give a solution because that's what makes me happy. I have a better outlook on life them most people my age.