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Yup, a couple things I've came to terms with. I fell for you, I fell hard. But the thing there isn't really much there. What do we have in common? Really though, it's not much. I'm struggling to find even one answer to that question. But that doesn't change how I feel. When I see you I want you to be just mine. I'm jealous and needy and all consumed in you. But when it comes down to it there could never be anything more then what there is. I fell for who you were, the cute things you once said. The actions you once had, the feelings you once played upon. They have long faded but that's what I fell for. The you that you were when you wanted me the same way. Which, you don't. Not anymore. You want what we have, if that. You want to call me up for an effortless good time. You want to have someone to fill the void in your life in a couple different ways. You don't want me and all I have to offer. And maybe it matters to you and maybe it doesn't but you have a major competition, whether you see it that way or not. Someone who wants to hang out with me, in public. That wants to go out and see movies and be out in the city. Someone who wants to spend the day with me not the night in me. Who I can chat freely with and be entirely myself around. It wouldn't matter if I hadn't showered or not. If I was a mess physically and mentally. It wouldn't matter because it's me and that's good enough. And the fact that being around him makes me happy and he wants to see me happy. It's a pretty stiff competition, so I'd start to worry.