Ain't always gold.

It's always been you. Since day one, it's been you. I was happy with him. We were good together, we made each other laugh. He was my shoulder to cry on and so much more and then you came around and I can't even think about him in that way anymore. I can't think about anyone in that way anymore. I wish I could pinpoint what it was. We have nothing really in common. We are totally different people and you don't want that from me. You don't know what you want but you know it's not me. The thing is I can't picture my life without you in it. I don't want to and yet that's what I'm doing. I know once I board that plane you will be gone from my life. I'm trying not to think of it that way, I'm trying to remember when you said that you'd be here, you'd always be here. But you won't be because that was never true. So I guess I'll just keep feeling like I'm cheating because I'm cheating my heart. It belongs to you now. For now.