Over the edge.

Seriously I can't believe I'm blogging about this but lately it's all I can think about. All I want right now is to orgasm, that's all. I mean I don't think it's that much to ask for. Just one. Just once. Just so I know what it's like. Okay.. I wouldn't be okay with just once. I want to have it all the time. Every time. More then once. Is that selfish? I don't think so. I mean I should have by now. I want to so bad. I don't think anyone understands how bad. I'm the only one I know that hasn't and usually it doesn't bother me but right now that is all I want and I would be completely satisfied with life. I think it might happen, I don't know though. The last couple of times felt so close. So close that it was devestating not to just be able to topple over and do what most normal people do. Arrgghhh I just want to now. Why isn't it that easy? I need this fixed now, help?