September 7, 2009

computer humming

I'm trying to convince myself of a number of things.
I try to convince myself that I'm not lonely and that I have everything I could want.
I try to convince myself that my life is on track and that this is where I want to be.
I try to convince myself that I'm not scared to death of leaving.
I try to convince myself that I'm grown up and that I'm okay living on my own.
I try to convince myself that I'm okay being by myself.
I try to convince myself that I know what I want.
I try to convince myself that I don't miss him being around and that there isn't a void that still hurts.
I try to convince myself that he meant nothing to me and that I'm okay with it.
I try to convince myself that I'm okay leaving.
I try to convince myself that I'm okay.

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