So I think I made the right choice. Yesterday I had to decide, go back to Red Deer with Dave because he was heading that way, or go with Chris to 3632 and take up his offer. Let's guess which one I picked! I'm really glad that I came here, last night just made my decision so much more concrete and certain. I'm trying to get out of my comfort zone and try something new and different and put myself out there. So far I'm doing good, so I have to give myself credit for it. I was scared. I ran through all the bad possible outcomes and almost convinced myself that it was a bad idea and that I should just pack up my losses and go home. Everyone is telling me to but I think this is what I need. I can't give up just yet. And when I think back I did the exact same thing before I went to Dave's. I was so scared and worried about not wanting to be there and invading and then I made it my home and I felt so comfortable there. I don't know why I can't do that here. It's already a way better environment and people talk to me which is more then at Dave's. I just gotta get a feel for all of it and find out a couple things. Get a place to put my stuff, feel comfortable coming in and out. Just stuff like that that I gotta feel out and then I think it will be a really positive experience. Last night was really good though and I love being surrounded by such positive and awesome people. A bunch of Chris's Friends came over and jammed out in his room. And not like normal jamming but with a jimbay drum, keyboard, synthesized keyboard, acoustic guitars, theremin and another instrument that I can't remember the name for that sounds like a zylephone or something. That's basically what I want to call it but it's not it. And we just played ambiance type music and sampled these different kinds of beer. It really just made me realize how much these people can better my life and how I should try to get into creative aspects like that. I have no sense of music knowledge and I did my best to get in on it but it's hard because I feel so far behind them in these aspects. I've never been one to be able to pick something up and just learn it and master it. I'm musically retarded or something. But I think it would really help me and make me feel good. Give me another thing to cross off my list.
Overall I'm just proud of myself and the choices I made. I put myself out there last night and tried different things that I normally wouldn't.
Etheopian food- which I'm not really too sure how I feel about it. It's interesting, kind of spicy and not really too sure what it was. But I know I ate vegetables mixed in so my family should be proud. I have to try it again when it's warm instead of leftovers and find out for sure.
Pipe tabbaco- Probably not a good choice but I'm widening my horizons. It's pretty smooth and interesting.
What else was there.. I guess the whole letting myself jam sort of thing was fun. Even though I just sort of sat there and hit random keys. Chris told me I did a good job with it so that makes me happy.
What else.. oh haha then we pulled Tyler home on his bike attatched to the car with these wires. What an awesome end to the night and sight to see, just this guy getting pulled behind a car at 3 in the morning arond Calgary and us just inside dying of laughter.
I also can feel myself getting less shy and putting myself on the line. It's an awesome feeling because it's something I've been trying to overcome for a long time now. It's frusterating because who I am when people meet me isn't who I am really. It's just this muted down version of myself but I think I let myself be shown last night. I did my best to try to start conversations and I think I did a good job with it. We will see though.
Ps: It's a glockenpiel. Woot, google.
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