You can forget it, I get it. I just don't let it get to me.

It's funny how people change and act differently when they find out that you could be dying. Maybe I made a mistake? Maybe it's time for a do-over. Maybe I need something to get me out of this weird rut that I'm in. Or maybe I shouldn't be thinking this hard this early.

Oh and maybe I didn't want to know these things. Maybe I wanted to go on in a false world believing that I was the only one and that what you said had some merit. That the things you said weren't to get what you wanted and some mind game. But that's just me, I fall for these things because I want so bad to love and be loved in return. And maybe I'm just not lovable.