This time no.

I know I'm not supposed to say I miss you. But I miss you. Oh man do I ever miss you. I miss your laugh. I miss being the little spoon and kisses before you went to work. I miss laughing with you and having stupid inside jokes. I miss being happy. Happy because of you and because I knew I could come home to you. And even though you acted weird when I cried I knew it was because you cared. And you made me laugh it away. Ugh, and now that I think you might be coming back soon I don't know what to do because of everything that has happened. I don't want to sleep alone but I don't want to know you are sleeping with someone else. In someone elses bed. I don't know.