Thoughts of the day:
I find it a completely weird concept that basically all the people I went to high school are now
1. Pregnant or have a kid, or kids or a family or all of the above
2. Have gotten fat, fatter or expanded to the point beyond recognition. May have something to do with number 1.
3. Are in serious relationships.
I'm not sure how I feel about it all. I know for a fact I am nowhere near being in the point in my life where I could feel comfortable having a kid. For me to say that even seems weird because as far back as I can remember I always wanted to be young mom. Maybe it's because that's all I know. But that's what I wanted. Looking back now and being who I am now I can't even begin to fathom my life plus one. That plus one being either a baby or someone that I'm seriously involved with. I'm just at a time in my life where I can't stay still. I can't be stuck to the same place for said amount of time. I have not even started my life yet, let alone be able to settle down enough to the point where I can worry about someone other then myself. And it makes me think, am I just that far behind everyone else or are they just rushing into it? How many people regret there lives right now and wish they had it different? Wish they had the freedom that I had. Right now I'm planning on where I'd want to live when I come back and I bet all on there mind is what money can go to what bill or what kind of future there child is going to have. Or maybe I just have it completely wrong. Maybe I'm the one missing out because I'm the one who is basically facing the world alone. But like I say, the day I settle down is the day I stop living.
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