Constilations

Le sigh, I'm super frustrated right now. I don't get why it's so hard for people to follow through with the plans they make. It's not that hard of a thing to do. I do it all the time. Other people, just don't. Take yesterday for example. The plan was for Sarah, Jenny and I to have a couple drinky poo's at work, continue till after work and then go for a little walk and out somewhere for a little Lisa going away dinners. Sounds good right? But no, Jenny decides that she didn't feel like coming in and 'spending her days off at work'. It's just like hello, YOU are the one that made this plan a week ago. YOU were the one talking about it the night before saying how excited you were for it. YOU were the one that decided against these plans. I mean, yes I get it. Sometimes things come up and for whatever reason you can't always make it to your plans, but she volunteered her time to go watch Tye's sisters kids. Like really, come on! You would rather go be 'so stressed out and annoyed' by these kids rather then going out and saying goodbye to me. I just don't get it. I don't have time to push back plans and yet everyone is acting like I'm not going anywhere. Trust me, it feels like I'm not. Almost all my stuff is packed and labeled and it still doesn't feel like I'm leaving. But I am, and I don't think it's too much to ask for just to act like it. She did it again tonight too. I asked her if she could come and just help me decide what to pack because I honestly am clueless as to what to pack for 6 months. She said that she would help and then instead of coming just hangs out with Tye while I'm clearly stressing out to the max. Then to add to it she walks by my room makes a comment about how close I am and how hard it would be and leaves. Thanks for your help there champ. It's not even that hard of a thing to do, just to give me a hand. She could literally sit there and just say yay or nay as regards to what my delusional self believes to be worthy of the luggage. And to think I woke up today ready to leave. I was finally in the right frame of mind and now I don't even care. I just want to go for a walk somewhere and just scream it out. I don't know why nobody understands this, I need help. I need to say goodbye. I need my time that I have left not to be wasted. I didn't want my last weekend in Alberta to play out this way. Ugh, this is such my life.